It's been three weeks since my sister's husband died. I've been doing a lot of praying since then. And a ton of writing in my notebook. There is a patch from yesterday that I think relates to the idea of faith and art and why we create in the first place.
...I'm conflicted because one moment I seem to "get" that this life is temporary. I mean, I don't just acknowledge it but really fully feel it. This world and this life is only a very bad copy of what we're created to be and of the reality that God exists in.
I sense it so strongly sometimes that I almost feel like I could go out and kick the car in the driveway and it would crumble up like tissue paper. And if I blew into the air the clouds would part and the sky would ripple like a curtain - that's how strong a sense of falseness I have at times about this life. But then I stick out my foot and rest it on the coffee table. And realize how hard and solid it is. And the …
"...in the dark" = Because I'm creating and thinking about something completely unexpected and unfamiliar.
How we got here:
Family history on both sides of breast and ovarian cancer including both
grandmothers; one survived and one had a second diagnosis of bilateral breast cancer and died seven years later of metastatic breast cancer. Also a male relative diagnosed with breast cancer in his 40s.
Starting Oct 2015 on through Oct 2017, I had two biopsies, was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 42, had BRCA lab testing, a lumpectomy, six weeks of radiation, follow-up mammograms and appointments and was given the all-clear.
I had been referred to the Department of Human Genetics at Cincinnati Children's for a cancer syndrome panel and had appointment this past January. They realized my original BRCA test was incomplete and added it to the panel. Results back about three weeks ago. My BRCA1 result paired with our family history means high risk for recurrence of breast…
After all this time, I'm finally posting. And finally got around to taking some photos. I keep meaning to post them but stuff kept coming up (like tearing apart the master bath... and the furnace deciding to stop working...) Then I stumbled upon this post at Between Naps on the Porch, which is one of the blogs I read when I get a chance. These link "parties" are always cool to take a bit to browse because you get some really great ideas from other people you would never otherwise meet in real life!
Now, thanks to Laurie, I read quite a few home decor and DIY blogs. But have never posted photos or linked to them. I love to look but it never occurs to me to share my stuff with anyone else. And when I saw HomeGoods I got a little sniffy because I loved HomeGoods when we lived in Maryland (their Waugh Chapel store misses me, I'm sure.) But as far as I knew, we didn't have a HomeGoods in Cincinnati. Every time I'd happen to catch David Bromstead on HGTV h…